I have been a mother now for 2 years and 7 months...That alone freaks me out.(Well I guess I was a mother before that while my little alien Rexton was still in the womb...but I mean since birth because stuff gets real after that). Anyways, I have made many mistakes these 2yr 7mo but I think keeping them alive and keeping my sanity at the same time is a great success.
I was thinking today about all of the things that have come out of my mouth since becoming a mother, some I am not proud of, some I have laughed after they come out, and some should be said. So, I decided to list some for the record.
1) "I love you"
--This comes out of my mouth the most, sometimes in purely happy moments, sometimes after I have been mean because I was frustrated, sometimes when they cry and I can't figure out why, sometimes when no other words seem to make sense, these words are powerful. These words make me feel good. These words are my reminder that I need to be grateful for every minute good/bad that I get to spend with my boys.
2) "Get off of that/get down"
---#boymom enough said.
3) "What is in your mouth?!"
---Not only do I have a crawler who has hawk-eye vision and can see a speck on the floor of god knows what, but I have a 2yo who picks candy up off a dirty freaking restaurant and puts it in his mouth and says 'treats'...yes that happened.
4) "Leave your brother alone."
---Usually directed to Rexton...because he is trying to play with his bubba. However, E has begun following Rex around and grabbing him..
5) "Stop touching your Penis at the dinner table."
----Yep those words happened, we are potty training and freaking killing it...Gone the whole month without a diaper getting wet at night, started wearing big boy boxers (not pull ups legit boxers) but in the beginning he was naked, always naked...and it worked...but he liked to play with 'it' at the dinner table.
6) "Just Eat!"
---Both kids have gotten this one. E is a distracted breast-feeder, every little thing distracts him while eating, its frustrating. Then Rex is just a picky eater...it's annoying, but again he has started to eat more foods---it has made a huge difference that we make sure to have dinner at the table as a family (unlike we were when he was younger).
7) "Leave the dogs alone!"
---This one usually gets yelled and at least 3 times a day. Nothing I do keeps Rex away from the dogs. Poor snuggles is always running away from him or giving into him and just taking his hair pulling/squishing. This one is almost always followed by number 2...like just now. E has started following in brother's foot steps
8) " I hate you" :(
---This one I am not proud of, but I feel is important that I be honest with myself enough to say I've said it...and I'm sure I'm not the only one. This one broke me the few times I have said it and I instantly felt like the worst person on the planet. These babies are so precious and the time I get with them is so limited and I should be grateful...but honestly I'm human and I have flaws. When these words came out of my mouth I was exhausted, frustrated, annoyed, angry, depressed and selfish. I missed the days I actually felt like a human and got the sleep I needed. I missed the days of showers uninterrupted, and I missed the days that my every action was not directly proportionate to the life of another human. However, I do have to say since I said them and it was only a few times late night, I have learned how to deal with life's testing moments. When this did get said however I instantly followed with the next phrase...and number 1. (Anyone that knows me knows that I could never hate my children.)
9) "I'm Sorry"
----I have said this at every instant when I have been a not so perfect mommy. I have said this when I yelled, when I cried out of frustration, when I am wrong, when I have spanked (because imo running into the street is warrant a spanking--well at least that's instinctively what my body did...some things should be associated with ouchies and again imo that is one). I apologize to my children for not being enough, I apologize when I don't understand what they are trying to say, I apologize to my husband when I undermine him, or don't show him enough affection (He never complains, and is always supportive and understands that I'm just in mommy mode...How did I get so lucky?)I apologize a lot because I think my kids need to see that it is okay to make mistakes if we take responsibility for them and change our behavior. They need to know it is OKAY to not be perfect (even though I set what some say too high of expectations for them)and to fail is how we learn and grow. I apologize not just because I should but to teach them.---This one is also always followed by number 1.
10) "You are so smart."
---My kids rock this thing called life. They figure out stuff quicker than I am ready for usually. Rexton frequently gets things away from the baby that he know he shouldn't have (he's only 2.5)...while at the same time playing a little too rough (haha), I love the look in their eyes when they accomplish a task (even if the task is something like climbing behind the chair to get a toy) They are learning, and seeing them grow each day is mind-blowing. I have also learned so much from them, I have learned that they mimic our behaviors and our movements to a key. E smiles all of the time--and I think it's because we smile a lot in this house, we laugh a lot...and we are happy, that is good. Rex repeats words and actions (some we did not purposely teach)...But his ability to use the words he learns in the proper manner makes me at least proud that he is smart enough to do so. I also value intelligence and want them to do the same, so it is important for me to tell them they are smart.
Well that is just 10 of the 100s of things I have said to my kids. Life is ever changing in this chaotic scary world---we are just doing what we can to build good human beings, we are just doing what we can to make them safe in a world that is not always, we are not just surviving in this world, we LIVE in this world. Our little family Lives and Loves each day we spend together and I cannot express into words how happy it makes me to have these 3 men (and 2 dogs) in my life to challenge me, support me, and guide me. Tim, Rexton, and Everett...Thank you for keeping mommy sane (most of the time) .
"Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don't wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future. Think how really precious is the time you have to spend, whether it's at work or with your family. Every minute should be enjoyed and savored".- Earl Nightingale
I was thinking today about all of the things that have come out of my mouth since becoming a mother, some I am not proud of, some I have laughed after they come out, and some should be said. So, I decided to list some for the record.
1) "I love you"
--This comes out of my mouth the most, sometimes in purely happy moments, sometimes after I have been mean because I was frustrated, sometimes when they cry and I can't figure out why, sometimes when no other words seem to make sense, these words are powerful. These words make me feel good. These words are my reminder that I need to be grateful for every minute good/bad that I get to spend with my boys.
2) "Get off of that/get down"
---#boymom enough said.
3) "What is in your mouth?!"
---Not only do I have a crawler who has hawk-eye vision and can see a speck on the floor of god knows what, but I have a 2yo who picks candy up off a dirty freaking restaurant and puts it in his mouth and says 'treats'...yes that happened.
4) "Leave your brother alone."
---Usually directed to Rexton...because he is trying to play with his bubba. However, E has begun following Rex around and grabbing him..
5) "Stop touching your Penis at the dinner table."
----Yep those words happened, we are potty training and freaking killing it...Gone the whole month without a diaper getting wet at night, started wearing big boy boxers (not pull ups legit boxers) but in the beginning he was naked, always naked...and it worked...but he liked to play with 'it' at the dinner table.
6) "Just Eat!"
---Both kids have gotten this one. E is a distracted breast-feeder, every little thing distracts him while eating, its frustrating. Then Rex is just a picky eater...it's annoying, but again he has started to eat more foods---it has made a huge difference that we make sure to have dinner at the table as a family (unlike we were when he was younger).
7) "Leave the dogs alone!"
---This one usually gets yelled and at least 3 times a day. Nothing I do keeps Rex away from the dogs. Poor snuggles is always running away from him or giving into him and just taking his hair pulling/squishing. This one is almost always followed by number 2...like just now. E has started following in brother's foot steps
8) " I hate you" :(
---This one I am not proud of, but I feel is important that I be honest with myself enough to say I've said it...and I'm sure I'm not the only one. This one broke me the few times I have said it and I instantly felt like the worst person on the planet. These babies are so precious and the time I get with them is so limited and I should be grateful...but honestly I'm human and I have flaws. When these words came out of my mouth I was exhausted, frustrated, annoyed, angry, depressed and selfish. I missed the days I actually felt like a human and got the sleep I needed. I missed the days of showers uninterrupted, and I missed the days that my every action was not directly proportionate to the life of another human. However, I do have to say since I said them and it was only a few times late night, I have learned how to deal with life's testing moments. When this did get said however I instantly followed with the next phrase...and number 1. (Anyone that knows me knows that I could never hate my children.)
9) "I'm Sorry"
----I have said this at every instant when I have been a not so perfect mommy. I have said this when I yelled, when I cried out of frustration, when I am wrong, when I have spanked (because imo running into the street is warrant a spanking--well at least that's instinctively what my body did...some things should be associated with ouchies and again imo that is one). I apologize to my children for not being enough, I apologize when I don't understand what they are trying to say, I apologize to my husband when I undermine him, or don't show him enough affection (He never complains, and is always supportive and understands that I'm just in mommy mode...How did I get so lucky?)I apologize a lot because I think my kids need to see that it is okay to make mistakes if we take responsibility for them and change our behavior. They need to know it is OKAY to not be perfect (even though I set what some say too high of expectations for them)and to fail is how we learn and grow. I apologize not just because I should but to teach them.---This one is also always followed by number 1.
10) "You are so smart."
---My kids rock this thing called life. They figure out stuff quicker than I am ready for usually. Rexton frequently gets things away from the baby that he know he shouldn't have (he's only 2.5)...while at the same time playing a little too rough (haha), I love the look in their eyes when they accomplish a task (even if the task is something like climbing behind the chair to get a toy) They are learning, and seeing them grow each day is mind-blowing. I have also learned so much from them, I have learned that they mimic our behaviors and our movements to a key. E smiles all of the time--and I think it's because we smile a lot in this house, we laugh a lot...and we are happy, that is good. Rex repeats words and actions (some we did not purposely teach)...But his ability to use the words he learns in the proper manner makes me at least proud that he is smart enough to do so. I also value intelligence and want them to do the same, so it is important for me to tell them they are smart.
Well that is just 10 of the 100s of things I have said to my kids. Life is ever changing in this chaotic scary world---we are just doing what we can to build good human beings, we are just doing what we can to make them safe in a world that is not always, we are not just surviving in this world, we LIVE in this world. Our little family Lives and Loves each day we spend together and I cannot express into words how happy it makes me to have these 3 men (and 2 dogs) in my life to challenge me, support me, and guide me. Tim, Rexton, and Everett...Thank you for keeping mommy sane (most of the time) .
"Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don't wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future. Think how really precious is the time you have to spend, whether it's at work or with your family. Every minute should be enjoyed and savored".- Earl Nightingale
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